1979

these songs are playing but kinda passing me by and i don't really seem to care all too much but just enough to notice every so often that they're there
what was that?
i want to say i'm sick and tired of you holding me back from letting everything go but you're not doing anything. it's all me and i'm holding myself back because not of you because of what i'd like. what i want. what i need? that may be pushing it. Just a tad.
I'm doing this to myself for no real reason. I want to see what it's like to die. But I dont' want to die. No, I do. I really do. But I don't. I want to see how things go. Curiousity killed the cat. Curiousity is all there is. Curiousity is what keeps me alive.
I want to
I'm scared
will You please
no i wont beg
but
i want death
i want You
either or will do
but i think i'd rather it be
You
i think i might just quite possibly perhaps actually in all reality and theory and and and
i think i love You