K-k-k-kILL

Dec. 28/09
I can't help thinking that last time I was here like this, it was the day before meeting
and it's kinda like "wow who knows what might happen tomorrow," y'know? I can hope and pray and dream even thought odds are nothing like that'll happen. But it'd be pretty awesome. I do really honestly and truly want to see Her again. Talk and get to know and love
and the same in return would be even better. I really do.
It's keeping me from death.
I'd like to believe anyways.

Dec. 29/09
Couldn't help wanting to get rammed on the highway. Not all of us, just me. A casualty of one. Not too shabby an end to the day. But then came the thought of
and I mean
I don't know
I don't want Her to be like my lifeline, my only reason but I mean
Am i just obsessed? I don't want that. I'm sure it's more. I'm alive so it must be more. Alive. Funny thing that is really.
I think I'm going to end up at Her or death sooner or later. But maybe that's ok.